Thursday, November 30, 2006
You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.
All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.
Okay, I do hate to admit this, but I think this is all pretty true to me. Ha! These things are too funny to me.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
They are changing his meds for the ADHD. She has us weaning him off the current medication and slowly adding the new medication. Great plan. The last time we tried to switch, it was one day one kind the next day the new kind and it was AWFUL!!! I even thing awful is an understatement. At any rate, I'm curious how this new medication will work. We are hoping it will allow him some better sleep.
She says that Austin suffers from General Anxiety Disorder. We have a few options. 1.) is medication like prozac or something else. 2.) Copeing therapy. 3.) Both. The therapy takes anywhere from 8 to 22 sessions, and they like to see children at least once every 2 weeks. She asked what I preferred. I said the therapy for now. She said that is great, because if he never learns to cope and we just do meds, he'll not know what to do and if as an adult he decides not to take meds, he'll be a mess. So we start therapy in January (that was the quickest we could get him in). I also said if he does these sessions and still needs some meds, we'll talk about that later. I would like to see what we can change by behavior modification. I am in hopes that they will give me lots of reading material, or ideas of what to read, so we can help alot at home, and learn what we can, so maybe we won't need 22 sessions. Please continue to pray for us during this time. It is really hard on Austin. He gets so upset with himself.
Just wanted to update on the happenings for Austin. We are finally making progress in this battle.
A quick note on our visit. Of course it is a childrens hospital. We saw many, many children coming and going. Babies hooked up to machines, babies and children with no hair, children in walkers, and thing like this. Austin was quit amazed by this. We talked about how blessed we are that they are physicaly healthy, and that there are many families with sick children, and we should pray for them. Well, today at Wal-Mart he saw a container for donations, and it was for Riley Children's Hosptial, and wouldn't you know he was putting all his change in the bottle and asking for more. Zach wasn't sure what was going on, so I heard Austin explain to him that this would go to help the sick children that go to Riley. Austin said he was sad when he thought about how sick some children are. I am blessed to have children with so much compassion. God is so good.
I talked to him about the bad attitude, and how sometimes it is jut much easier to keep the attitude than get rid of it. Even when we know we are wrong with out actions. He just looked at me, like whatever. I talked about how we are like this because we are sinners, even if we've been saved we are still sinners and have a sinful nature. Still just looks is about all I'm getting with an occasional nod. I went on to tell him the only way to change is to ask God to forgive us for the selfsih ness and ask for his help in changing. More nods and looks. Then I went on to talk about myself ahving a negitive attitude and knowing it, but not changing, or asking for God to help me. I told him that before I went to bed on Sunday I had to repent of my selfish sinful ways and God changed my attitude and helped me. At that I got a big grin and I could tell he was understanding what I was saying. He didn't necessarily need me to tell him what to do, or how he was srong, he knew that. He needed to know that I struggle the same way sometimes, well lots, and I have to ask God to forgive me and help me. It was such a wonderful experience for us both. I got a big hug and I love you from the boy. I connected with my soon to be teen, who I now look at his chin when he stands in front of me. What a great kid. What a great big God we serve. He used that awful mood I'd gotten into to bring glory to Him. God used my situation to show my son that we all struggle, we are all sinful by nature, but God can and will help us each day.
***let me explain, just in case you wonder, my weekend schedule at work. I have to work 18 hours between the 2 days (sat & sun). I work at least 10 on Saturday, and get all my Saturday stuff done, and start what I can of my Sunday work, then on Sunday when I go in I just do the paperwork, the banking, and stuff like that, then I leave and go to church. Then when the boys get close to bedtime, I go back into work and finish, usually about 3 hours. I have to finish the grocery order for our store, which includes inventorying all cigarettes and figuring the order for the week. Then my weekend work is done. I'm so thankful that my manager understands how important that church is to me, and allows me to be so flexible with Sundays. It works great, because I get stuff done before church spend the day with the boys and go back when they go to bed.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Jordan has grown so stinking much that his jeans I just bought him when school started are getting too small--good thing he only has 2 pairs. Therefore, I'm going to go to the mall today. I love to buy the boys jeans at Old Navy, and besides I'll go to Kohls also. Those are my 2 favoritest stores well, besides Wal-Mart. I have returns to all 3 stores actually, so off I go to enjoy my day off. I guess I'll pay for it later. I am hoping to get back just as the boys get out of school. You know we live FAR from a city with the stores I like to shop at, so it will not leave me with much browsing time, but that is okay, I really don't have alot of extra $$$ to spend at the moment.
Oh, by the way, yesterday was a wonderful day in our house. I'll post a story about it later. It is amazing what the Holy Spirit can do through us when we are not looking at ourselves.
Have a great day.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
I'm tired! I'm exhausted from working full time (40-45 hours a week lately), Rob is working a very physically demanding job 45 hours a week, we have 3 ADHD children, a house, and just life in general. Let me be the first to admit. I'm doing a lousy job keeping up with all this. I'm tired all the time. My nerves are shot, I don't have patience with the boys, I can't keep my house picked up much less clean. UGH!!!! Today was another of those days. I was off this weekend, however I worked for 8 days straight to get to this point. I was tired. They boys stayed at my sisters on Friday. Great I thought, I'll get up and clean and do laundry, then we can go to the promised "Wal-mart shopping spree" with the boys. Well, I did sleep in. I slept until 9am. Got up started my day. My dryer is not working right. The vent house is flex pipe (?) and is full of lint, therefore, it will not heat up to dry properly. Therefore, it takes 2 to 3 times longer to dry the clothes, which makes laundry more of a nightmare than usual.
Okay, enough gripping. Today on the way to church I wasn't in a very good mood. I know it is just pure selfishness, things aren't going smoothly for me, and I don't like it at all. I'm tired of the boys fighting all the time, I'm tired with Austin (poor little guy wears me out), I'm just tired. Well, then we get to church, and of all things we talked about in SS was "Thankfulness". UGH!!! I was so convicted, I was almost in tears the entire time, good thing no one made eye contact with me or I would have lost it, like I'm about to do know just thinking of it.
Some of the things that Patti talked about were so elementary, I know them, but boy did I need to hear them. God is so absolutely great, and even if he doesn't give us exactly what we want we should still worship and glorify him. He doesn't owe me anything. I owe him so very much. He has given me life, and more than that, he calls me his own. He is my father, what more do I need. UGH!! I get so frustrated with myself sometimes. I'm so stinking sinful sometimes, it drives me crazy. I think I get trapped back into the mindset of "works based" thinking. I.E. "You know God I'm doing my best, couldn't you just reward me for that?" WHY! WHY! WHY! God is so awesome, I can't even put into words how I feel right at this moment. Why, when I feel this way to I allow my self to get so upset at circumstances, why don't I just turn my eyes towards God and cry out to him for help? Sinful nature, and a lack of quiet time each day with the one who is able to sustain me through all things, that is why. I have gotten so wrapped up with the day to day things, that I've forgotten to talk with God each day. It is so easy to say, "I trust God can carry me through any circumstance" and not believe it with all your heart. Today the Holy Spirit sure did a work in my life, I hope to not soon forget. Now does this mean I didn't struggle at all the rest of the day, absolutely not, I just know where I can find my true joy. It is in worshiping the creator, not what he has or hasn't done in my life God has preordained these circumstances, gave me the children I have, and I have to trust that he will work through me and carry me through this time.
I hope that this makes some sense to someone out there. Even if it doesn't, that is okay. To God be the glory for the revelation he did in my heart today.
Hevenly Father, I worship you for who you are. Father, please forgive me once again for my unbelief and selfish sinful nature. I have taken my eyes off of you once again, and focused my attention on the things in my life, and not on you. I cry out to you with a humble heart, asking that you please give me the strenght it takes to get through this time. You know the thoughts and desires of my heart. Lord you have given me the children chosen for me by you. Lord I thank you for them. Lord help me to glorify you, and to show them the love that you've shown to me. Help me Lord to be kind, and not so critical and unhappy towards my chilren. Lord, through the work of the Holy Spirit, I ask that you produce the fruits of the spirit in my life. I want to glorify you in all I do. Not for myself, but that others may see Christ in me. I thank you that you chose me "before the foundation of the world". You knew exactly who I'd be, and all the circumstances that I'd encounter. I thank you that you sent your one and only son to die on that cross for my sins. I thank you that even though I'm a sinner, I know that you love me, and my salvation is secure for Christ holds me in his hand, and you, Father, hold that hand that holds me. Oh, I get such joy when I think of that. I thank you once again just for who you are. I know God that you will carry me through this time in my life. In your sons precious name. Amen!
Monday, November 06, 2006
Now let me tell you, this picture is a little decieving. They don't always act this calm when the other wants to try and kick you. LOL!!
Austin looks ready to conquer the world. See, he is such a great kid.
Here is the latest Myers Family picture. It usually takes me about 1 year to talk my husband into getting pictures taken. This time I think it only took 8 months. What a guy. Like how I have the boys match. Fun! I'm sure there will be a day that they won't do it for me. We'll see. My face looks a little pale in this copy, I'm not the best at scanning and that kind of stull. OOPS!
have a great day. I must get ready for work, since I've done nothing this mornig but mess on the computer.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
It is not a set of rules to obey. It is to obey the creator.
How selfish am I at times. Looking at God through pinholes and not directly in his face.
Heavenly Father, Forgive me for my selfish acts. It is my desire to be obedient to you each day.
Thank you for your loving forgiveness. You forgive me each and everyday, sometimes for the same ol' thing. I thank you for the sacrifice you made, through you son Jesus, on Calvary that day long ago. I thank you that you chose me before I could even think to chose you. I want to bring glory to you each and every day. Even though I fail so many times, you are so faithful to love and forgive me. Please Lord teach me to look to you first, not myself for the answers. I thank you again for your undying faithfulness, grace and mercy. In your Sons precious name. Amen
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
***You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament***
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you.
You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover.
You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.
What Temperment Are You?http://www.blogthings.com/whattempermentareyouquiz/
Yesterday my friend Becky called me and told me that someone was giving her a hard time, because she had chosen (well, God chose--another story for another time) to start coming to church with me and leave our former faith family also. Okay, well, this is the jist of what her friend asked her. "You were supposed to help win her (me) back to the faith--the truth--not go with her. Besides I'd heard she (me) had gone wild since she left and had tatoos, and stuff like that." Crazy right? Let me ask you this question, did anyone who said these things, or heard these things about me bother to call and see what was going on? NOT!!! It was just easier to continue to tell these stories. Let me tell you something else, I won't even get my eyes pierced, do you think I'm going to get a tatoo? NOT!!!!! People are so shallow and closed minded. UGH!!!
Now, here is the alcohol part. Today, I had to take Zach to the Dr. to get a refill on his perscription. Dr. Downey comes in and here is our conversation--well, maybe not word for word, but you'll ge the idea.
Dr. : "What's going on?"(very concerned like)
Me: "Not, much, just need a refill for Zach."
Dr.: "This isn't for Austin?"
Me: "No why?"
Dr.: "What's going on will Austin."
Me: "Well we went to Riley last week, and go back in a couple of weeks again. Why?"
Dr.: "Have you taken him to Winds of Change?"
Me: "Yes, why?"
Dr." "Your boys have the same Dad right?"
Me: "Uh, Yeah!" (very dumbfounded by this question--since we know him personally and
have gone to him for 4 years.)
Dr.: "Well, I got a faxed letter from Winds of Change, something about Austin being scared to go
to his Dad's because he drinks alot and is abusive."
Me: "Not my Austin. In fact I"ve not taken him there in a while, I found it useless, since we
were going to go to Riley."
Dr.: "Okay, I'm going to check this letter out again, and I'll show you."
He brings the letter in, and yes, it was about my Austin--but it was a BIG mix up.
Me: "Hey, (lightbulb moment) there is another Austin same middle and last name in this
county, and get this the only difference in their birthdays are the months they were
born. Same day and year."
Dr.: "How do you know this?"
Me: "Because when Austin was a baby I went to the health department to get his shots once,
and they tried to tell me he had already gotten them. I had to convince them he had not
and that is when I discovered this."
The Dr. and I just kind of chuckled about this when we figured it out. He immediately, while I was there, called Winds of Change and told them they were mistaken. Wrong Austin. So, I proceeded to tell him the other things I'd learned this week about myself. Great laugh. He told me I'd probably better lay off the alcohol and quit abusing my kids. LOL! I told him the only alcohol I've ever tasted was communion wine--and that was only once--every other church we went to served juice.
Boy, am I thankful for a Doctor who does know us well, and he believed me when I told him "Absolutely NO was my husband a drinker, and definately not abusive." Crazy huh! I'm just so glad that I had the appointment today, or who knows what would have happened.
Just thought I'd share the funny story with you all.
So, truthfully, I'm am not a drinking, abusive mother with tatoos. And YES, all my children do have the same father.
I got a chuckle out of this today. Hope you do too.