Here are a few of the latest.
During Family worship as we were reading Romans, it was talking about circumcision, and Austin asks when we were done reading. What is circumcision? Great question, right. Well, that was left up to Dad to explain. Of course he did a great job, and also talk of the spiritual application of circumcision of the heart. Anyway, it was a great chuckle for us all. So, at Christmas, Austin said to one of his aunts, knowing full well what he was doing, "Hey, lets talk about circumcision." Uh, what, she said. He then says, just kidding. This is by the way one of those things my boys are glad was done as a baby, and not when they were 30 years old. LOL! They are also happy to know that it is no longer the sign of the covenant.
Today, as my boys are playing their new playstation, they needed something to hold the cords, well, I think at least. Zach says, "Mom can I use one of your hair bracelets?" "Uh, what in the world are you talking about?" "Well, you know the hair bracelet" "You mean a pony tail holder?!" "Yeah, Mom." Of course you can use one, while I chuckle.
Silly boys.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Merry Christmas
May we remember the gift that was given on this day. Our savior. I wish you and yours a blessed Christmas and New Year.
***Last night in our family worship time, in which you wonder if your children really do inteed listen as they fidget and look around, we read Luke 2. When it was over, Jordan asked this question (well something to this effect) Where is says "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace among those with who he is well pleased!" (Luke 2:14ESV) Is this talking about predestination? Absolutely, it is talking about definate atonement. Well, my point in this comment is that THEY DO LISTEN. There was also something that Austin picked up when we were doing our chatecism questions. This shows me that the boys are listening, thinking and taking to heart what they are being taught. I'm so thankful for many things this year. God has brought us so far on our journey. We have gone from being extremely legalistic, oneness pentecotal, to very reformed in our theology. God has revealed so much to us. And then, to top it all off, my children understand. God has opened their understanding. God is so AWESOME! He is so faithful. My children are a part of the covenant family. Okay, I could go on and on. I just want to praise God for revealing truth to us each day.
***Last night in our family worship time, in which you wonder if your children really do inteed listen as they fidget and look around, we read Luke 2. When it was over, Jordan asked this question (well something to this effect) Where is says "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace among those with who he is well pleased!" (Luke 2:14ESV) Is this talking about predestination? Absolutely, it is talking about definate atonement. Well, my point in this comment is that THEY DO LISTEN. There was also something that Austin picked up when we were doing our chatecism questions. This shows me that the boys are listening, thinking and taking to heart what they are being taught. I'm so thankful for many things this year. God has brought us so far on our journey. We have gone from being extremely legalistic, oneness pentecotal, to very reformed in our theology. God has revealed so much to us. And then, to top it all off, my children understand. God has opened their understanding. God is so AWESOME! He is so faithful. My children are a part of the covenant family. Okay, I could go on and on. I just want to praise God for revealing truth to us each day.The things I saw when I walked into the boys room.
Yesterday when I came home, the boys room was a mess, as usual. I walked into survey the damage, and this is what I saw. These poor G.I. Joes were hanging. UGH! I continued on into the room, and behind the closet door, the next picture is what was hiding there. I asked Austin what happened the the "hanging G.I. Joes", he calmly told me that they had disobeyed the laws of war and were being hanged. Then I asked it the closet was a hosptial, or what, he said "no this is their beds. The hanger you see is the "lift" into the bunks. Very imaginative boys I have. They happened to use an entire box of kleenex for the beds, I sure hope the G.I. Joes were comfy.



Thursday, December 21, 2006
Austin update
Austin goes to Riley Children's Hospital ADHD Clinic again tomorrow. He is doing exceptionally well with his new medicine. I was concerned because the Dr. said it could cause his anxiety to become worse and then it is just a 12 hour med, so I was also worried about the evenings. He has been doing so much better. He has a rough time getting started in the morning. He is SO scattered, the other day it took him 20 minutes to put on 1 shoe, and then I had to tie it for him. He was trying to do so many other things while he was putting on the shoe. Well, we figured that out. I take him his pill with a drink, before he really wakes up and he takes it, this way when he does get out of bed (usually about 30 min later) he is ready to do what needs to be done. This has helped tremendously. Our evenings are not as chaotic as I thought they'd be. He is a little more high strung than before, however, he is not having the outburst of rage, and he is playing with his brothers somewhat calmly (well, as calm as 3 boys together can be). I think that because his days are much more relaxed it is helping him in the evening, because he doesn't have all the bottled up anxiety from a day "gone wrong". Oh, and lest I forget. He was doing HORRIBLE in spelling--d's and f's faithfully, and that with extra help. He has gotten 2 B's and last week was an A. WOOHOO! He was so excited! So, I guess I have to say overall, Austin is doing well. Thank God for medical help. He is such a great kid, and he just needed some help. Oh, I think his sleeping is a little better. Well, except the other night, he was up playing video games in the middle of the night--he says "what am I supposed to do when I can't sleep and everyone is asleep?"
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Reason for my absence
Hello to all my mny (ha) blog friends. I have missed you all. I have a computer with an illness, and its warranty just ran out (imagine that), and it is $70 just to look at it. NOT happening now.
Well, I'll do a short, very short update, as I need to get my children picked up in about 10 minutes.
Things are well in the Myers home. The boys are fighting less, because they are being forced to interact with each other, since they can't get on the computer, or the PS1 (it's broken too). I love it. I'm am spending more time with my children, also since I can't waste time online. So, see there are good things to say about our computer problems. Now, dont get me wrong, I sure do miss blogging and reading my friends blog, but for now, we'll just have to make a trip to the library or someplace else to do this.
We had a great Thanksgiving weekend. We were able to spend good quality time with Rob's 2 sisters and their families. It was great. FABULOUS! Actually.
Well, that is it for now. Maybe I'll make the short trek back to the library to blog some more. We'll see. Maybe I'll even have a profound thought for the day. Until next time.
Melissa
Well, I'll do a short, very short update, as I need to get my children picked up in about 10 minutes.
Things are well in the Myers home. The boys are fighting less, because they are being forced to interact with each other, since they can't get on the computer, or the PS1 (it's broken too). I love it. I'm am spending more time with my children, also since I can't waste time online. So, see there are good things to say about our computer problems. Now, dont get me wrong, I sure do miss blogging and reading my friends blog, but for now, we'll just have to make a trip to the library or someplace else to do this.
We had a great Thanksgiving weekend. We were able to spend good quality time with Rob's 2 sisters and their families. It was great. FABULOUS! Actually.
Well, that is it for now. Maybe I'll make the short trek back to the library to blog some more. We'll see. Maybe I'll even have a profound thought for the day. Until next time.
Melissa
Thursday, November 30, 2006
You are Sunrise
You Are Sunrise
You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.
All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.
Okay, I do hate to admit this, but I think this is all pretty true to me. Ha! These things are too funny to me.
You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.
Okay, I do hate to admit this, but I think this is all pretty true to me. Ha! These things are too funny to me.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Welcome Jayden Michael
The Fort Austin & Zach built
Life with boys


This is what ones bathroom may look like when living with little boys. They were playing G.I. Joes, I'm not exactly sure what was happening. Let me tell you this much: give my boys some string (in this case it was embroidery thread) and a box (not necessarily this time) and they can entertain themselves for hours. My boys are very creative.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Was it Thanksgiving or Christmas?

These are all the cousins from Rob's family. Rob has 2 younger sisters. Jen & Faith. We enjoyed spending alot of time with them all. Eating, shopping, talking, laughing, eating some more, and just lots of fun.
Front from left: Montgomery, Acacia (Jen & Dean's kids) & Myles (Faith & Brent's boy)
Back: Zach, Austin & Jordan
We had "great fun" this past weekend. It ended up being Thanksgiving/Christmas all weekend.
I'll post details of our trip later. Now, I must go to bed.
I will say the kids were wonderful. They all played together so well, even shopped together well. It was a lot of fun times and memories for them.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Thanksgiving Turkey
Monday, November 20, 2006
Austin's second Dr visit
We went to Riley Childrens Hospital again on Friday. It was a shorter visit and Austin was able to go school for the afternoon, which is what he wanted. I had kind of planned on just enjoying the day with him, and NO he wanted to get back to go to school. (the hospital is almost 2 hours away, so it is quit feesible to be gone the entire day).
They are changing his meds for the ADHD. She has us weaning him off the current medication and slowly adding the new medication. Great plan. The last time we tried to switch, it was one day one kind the next day the new kind and it was AWFUL!!! I even thing awful is an understatement. At any rate, I'm curious how this new medication will work. We are hoping it will allow him some better sleep.
She says that Austin suffers from General Anxiety Disorder. We have a few options. 1.) is medication like prozac or something else. 2.) Copeing therapy. 3.) Both. The therapy takes anywhere from 8 to 22 sessions, and they like to see children at least once every 2 weeks. She asked what I preferred. I said the therapy for now. She said that is great, because if he never learns to cope and we just do meds, he'll not know what to do and if as an adult he decides not to take meds, he'll be a mess. So we start therapy in January (that was the quickest we could get him in). I also said if he does these sessions and still needs some meds, we'll talk about that later. I would like to see what we can change by behavior modification. I am in hopes that they will give me lots of reading material, or ideas of what to read, so we can help alot at home, and learn what we can, so maybe we won't need 22 sessions. Please continue to pray for us during this time. It is really hard on Austin. He gets so upset with himself.
Just wanted to update on the happenings for Austin. We are finally making progress in this battle.
A quick note on our visit. Of course it is a childrens hospital. We saw many, many children coming and going. Babies hooked up to machines, babies and children with no hair, children in walkers, and thing like this. Austin was quit amazed by this. We talked about how blessed we are that they are physicaly healthy, and that there are many families with sick children, and we should pray for them. Well, today at Wal-Mart he saw a container for donations, and it was for Riley Children's Hosptial, and wouldn't you know he was putting all his change in the bottle and asking for more. Zach wasn't sure what was going on, so I heard Austin explain to him that this would go to help the sick children that go to Riley. Austin said he was sad when he thought about how sick some children are. I am blessed to have children with so much compassion. God is so good.
They are changing his meds for the ADHD. She has us weaning him off the current medication and slowly adding the new medication. Great plan. The last time we tried to switch, it was one day one kind the next day the new kind and it was AWFUL!!! I even thing awful is an understatement. At any rate, I'm curious how this new medication will work. We are hoping it will allow him some better sleep.
She says that Austin suffers from General Anxiety Disorder. We have a few options. 1.) is medication like prozac or something else. 2.) Copeing therapy. 3.) Both. The therapy takes anywhere from 8 to 22 sessions, and they like to see children at least once every 2 weeks. She asked what I preferred. I said the therapy for now. She said that is great, because if he never learns to cope and we just do meds, he'll not know what to do and if as an adult he decides not to take meds, he'll be a mess. So we start therapy in January (that was the quickest we could get him in). I also said if he does these sessions and still needs some meds, we'll talk about that later. I would like to see what we can change by behavior modification. I am in hopes that they will give me lots of reading material, or ideas of what to read, so we can help alot at home, and learn what we can, so maybe we won't need 22 sessions. Please continue to pray for us during this time. It is really hard on Austin. He gets so upset with himself.
Just wanted to update on the happenings for Austin. We are finally making progress in this battle.
A quick note on our visit. Of course it is a childrens hospital. We saw many, many children coming and going. Babies hooked up to machines, babies and children with no hair, children in walkers, and thing like this. Austin was quit amazed by this. We talked about how blessed we are that they are physicaly healthy, and that there are many families with sick children, and we should pray for them. Well, today at Wal-Mart he saw a container for donations, and it was for Riley Children's Hosptial, and wouldn't you know he was putting all his change in the bottle and asking for more. Zach wasn't sure what was going on, so I heard Austin explain to him that this would go to help the sick children that go to Riley. Austin said he was sad when he thought about how sick some children are. I am blessed to have children with so much compassion. God is so good.
Just another great God story
Here I shared with you all how I was feeling about stuff in general. Well, I woke up with a much better attitude. The Holy Spirit was at work in my heart and life. I said a silent prayer as I started my day that God would give me the grace I needed, and he did. Isn't it amazing what God will do if we just ask. At any rate, it was a good day. (Actually all of them have been good since I got my selfish attitude in check again) Jordan, who is now 12.5 years old decides he is just going to have a crummy attitude and treat his brothers awful. Well, I had tried to remprimand him kindly, and ended up sending him to his room. I told him all he had to do was change the attitude, and he could join the family again. He goes to his room, and comes right out, and I could tell there was absolutely no change, so back he went to his room. Which of course he thougth I was just awful. I thought to myself, "self you need to have a talk with this boy" (actually I'm sure it was the Holy Spirit at work again in my life). Well, what in the world am I going to say to a child in a bad mood, that I feel like I'm talking to myself when I talk to him. (does anyone understand what I mean by that) Well, I go in and just have a conversation something along these lines.
I talked to him about the bad attitude, and how sometimes it is jut much easier to keep the attitude than get rid of it. Even when we know we are wrong with out actions. He just looked at me, like whatever. I talked about how we are like this because we are sinners, even if we've been saved we are still sinners and have a sinful nature. Still just looks is about all I'm getting with an occasional nod. I went on to tell him the only way to change is to ask God to forgive us for the selfsih ness and ask for his help in changing. More nods and looks. Then I went on to talk about myself ahving a negitive attitude and knowing it, but not changing, or asking for God to help me. I told him that before I went to bed on Sunday I had to repent of my selfish sinful ways and God changed my attitude and helped me. At that I got a big grin and I could tell he was understanding what I was saying. He didn't necessarily need me to tell him what to do, or how he was srong, he knew that. He needed to know that I struggle the same way sometimes, well lots, and I have to ask God to forgive me and help me. It was such a wonderful experience for us both. I got a big hug and I love you from the boy. I connected with my soon to be teen, who I now look at his chin when he stands in front of me. What a great kid. What a great big God we serve. He used that awful mood I'd gotten into to bring glory to Him. God used my situation to show my son that we all struggle, we are all sinful by nature, but God can and will help us each day.
I talked to him about the bad attitude, and how sometimes it is jut much easier to keep the attitude than get rid of it. Even when we know we are wrong with out actions. He just looked at me, like whatever. I talked about how we are like this because we are sinners, even if we've been saved we are still sinners and have a sinful nature. Still just looks is about all I'm getting with an occasional nod. I went on to tell him the only way to change is to ask God to forgive us for the selfsih ness and ask for his help in changing. More nods and looks. Then I went on to talk about myself ahving a negitive attitude and knowing it, but not changing, or asking for God to help me. I told him that before I went to bed on Sunday I had to repent of my selfish sinful ways and God changed my attitude and helped me. At that I got a big grin and I could tell he was understanding what I was saying. He didn't necessarily need me to tell him what to do, or how he was srong, he knew that. He needed to know that I struggle the same way sometimes, well lots, and I have to ask God to forgive me and help me. It was such a wonderful experience for us both. I got a big hug and I love you from the boy. I connected with my soon to be teen, who I now look at his chin when he stands in front of me. What a great kid. What a great big God we serve. He used that awful mood I'd gotten into to bring glory to Him. God used my situation to show my son that we all struggle, we are all sinful by nature, but God can and will help us each day.
Nice day
Today at our church was Thanksgivng dinner. It is my weekend to work, therefore, we really didn't plan on staying for the dinner. It was at 5 pm, and it just didn't seem feesible to stay gone all day. Well, then we get to church and they announce no Wednesday night service, so therefore, we stayed in New Castle (which is about 50-55 min from home) for the day. We had driven in seperate vehicles, which actually worked out great this time. We were able to take the van to Wal-Mart and get the oil changed, and still have a vehicle to run around in. We ate, extremely cheap at McDonalds, and then Pastor Charlie left the church office unlocked and we just hung out there for a couple of hours. It was a nice time, we were able to talk to the church secretary, who I've never actually had time to have a conversation with, and there was a pool table in the basement, which occupied the boys. This wonderfu covenant family we are a part of is great. We love this church family. It was a nice day. We got back to town around 7:15 and I went into work to finish my weekend duties. I really should be in bed, but obviously I'm not.
***let me explain, just in case you wonder, my weekend schedule at work. I have to work 18 hours between the 2 days (sat & sun). I work at least 10 on Saturday, and get all my Saturday stuff done, and start what I can of my Sunday work, then on Sunday when I go in I just do the paperwork, the banking, and stuff like that, then I leave and go to church. Then when the boys get close to bedtime, I go back into work and finish, usually about 3 hours. I have to finish the grocery order for our store, which includes inventorying all cigarettes and figuring the order for the week. Then my weekend work is done. I'm so thankful that my manager understands how important that church is to me, and allows me to be so flexible with Sundays. It works great, because I get stuff done before church spend the day with the boys and go back when they go to bed.
***let me explain, just in case you wonder, my weekend schedule at work. I have to work 18 hours between the 2 days (sat & sun). I work at least 10 on Saturday, and get all my Saturday stuff done, and start what I can of my Sunday work, then on Sunday when I go in I just do the paperwork, the banking, and stuff like that, then I leave and go to church. Then when the boys get close to bedtime, I go back into work and finish, usually about 3 hours. I have to finish the grocery order for our store, which includes inventorying all cigarettes and figuring the order for the week. Then my weekend work is done. I'm so thankful that my manager understands how important that church is to me, and allows me to be so flexible with Sundays. It works great, because I get stuff done before church spend the day with the boys and go back when they go to bed.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
I'm going to be bad today! It's okay though
Today I am off of work. Jordan and Austin had eye doctors appointments. I just took them to school. My house is a mess, like usual. However, I have some things I'm going to do instead of cleaning at the moment.
Jordan has grown so stinking much that his jeans I just bought him when school started are getting too small--good thing he only has 2 pairs. Therefore, I'm going to go to the mall today. I love to buy the boys jeans at Old Navy, and besides I'll go to Kohls also. Those are my 2 favoritest stores well, besides Wal-Mart. I have returns to all 3 stores actually, so off I go to enjoy my day off. I guess I'll pay for it later. I am hoping to get back just as the boys get out of school. You know we live FAR from a city with the stores I like to shop at, so it will not leave me with much browsing time, but that is okay, I really don't have alot of extra $$$ to spend at the moment.
Oh, by the way, yesterday was a wonderful day in our house. I'll post a story about it later. It is amazing what the Holy Spirit can do through us when we are not looking at ourselves.
Have a great day.
Jordan has grown so stinking much that his jeans I just bought him when school started are getting too small--good thing he only has 2 pairs. Therefore, I'm going to go to the mall today. I love to buy the boys jeans at Old Navy, and besides I'll go to Kohls also. Those are my 2 favoritest stores well, besides Wal-Mart. I have returns to all 3 stores actually, so off I go to enjoy my day off. I guess I'll pay for it later. I am hoping to get back just as the boys get out of school. You know we live FAR from a city with the stores I like to shop at, so it will not leave me with much browsing time, but that is okay, I really don't have alot of extra $$$ to spend at the moment.
Oh, by the way, yesterday was a wonderful day in our house. I'll post a story about it later. It is amazing what the Holy Spirit can do through us when we are not looking at ourselves.
Have a great day.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
This is a test! and I'm falling horribly!
Do I really believe that God is sovereign and in control at all times? Do I really believe that God will give the grace necessary to get through hard times in our lives?
I'm tired! I'm exhausted from working full time (40-45 hours a week lately), Rob is working a very physically demanding job 45 hours a week, we have 3 ADHD children, a house, and just life in general. Let me be the first to admit. I'm doing a lousy job keeping up with all this. I'm tired all the time. My nerves are shot, I don't have patience with the boys, I can't keep my house picked up much less clean. UGH!!!! Today was another of those days. I was off this weekend, however I worked for 8 days straight to get to this point. I was tired. They boys stayed at my sisters on Friday. Great I thought, I'll get up and clean and do laundry, then we can go to the promised "Wal-mart shopping spree" with the boys. Well, I did sleep in. I slept until 9am. Got up started my day. My dryer is not working right. The vent house is flex pipe (?) and is full of lint, therefore, it will not heat up to dry properly. Therefore, it takes 2 to 3 times longer to dry the clothes, which makes laundry more of a nightmare than usual.
Okay, enough gripping. Today on the way to church I wasn't in a very good mood. I know it is just pure selfishness, things aren't going smoothly for me, and I don't like it at all. I'm tired of the boys fighting all the time, I'm tired with Austin (poor little guy wears me out), I'm just tired. Well, then we get to church, and of all things we talked about in SS was "Thankfulness". UGH!!! I was so convicted, I was almost in tears the entire time, good thing no one made eye contact with me or I would have lost it, like I'm about to do know just thinking of it.
Some of the things that Patti talked about were so elementary, I know them, but boy did I need to hear them. God is so absolutely great, and even if he doesn't give us exactly what we want we should still worship and glorify him. He doesn't owe me anything. I owe him so very much. He has given me life, and more than that, he calls me his own. He is my father, what more do I need. UGH!! I get so frustrated with myself sometimes. I'm so stinking sinful sometimes, it drives me crazy. I think I get trapped back into the mindset of "works based" thinking. I.E. "You know God I'm doing my best, couldn't you just reward me for that?" WHY! WHY! WHY! God is so awesome, I can't even put into words how I feel right at this moment. Why, when I feel this way to I allow my self to get so upset at circumstances, why don't I just turn my eyes towards God and cry out to him for help? Sinful nature, and a lack of quiet time each day with the one who is able to sustain me through all things, that is why. I have gotten so wrapped up with the day to day things, that I've forgotten to talk with God each day. It is so easy to say, "I trust God can carry me through any circumstance" and not believe it with all your heart. Today the Holy Spirit sure did a work in my life, I hope to not soon forget. Now does this mean I didn't struggle at all the rest of the day, absolutely not, I just know where I can find my true joy. It is in worshiping the creator, not what he has or hasn't done in my life God has preordained these circumstances, gave me the children I have, and I have to trust that he will work through me and carry me through this time.
I hope that this makes some sense to someone out there. Even if it doesn't, that is okay. To God be the glory for the revelation he did in my heart today.
Hevenly Father, I worship you for who you are. Father, please forgive me once again for my unbelief and selfish sinful nature. I have taken my eyes off of you once again, and focused my attention on the things in my life, and not on you. I cry out to you with a humble heart, asking that you please give me the strenght it takes to get through this time. You know the thoughts and desires of my heart. Lord you have given me the children chosen for me by you. Lord I thank you for them. Lord help me to glorify you, and to show them the love that you've shown to me. Help me Lord to be kind, and not so critical and unhappy towards my chilren. Lord, through the work of the Holy Spirit, I ask that you produce the fruits of the spirit in my life. I want to glorify you in all I do. Not for myself, but that others may see Christ in me. I thank you that you chose me "before the foundation of the world". You knew exactly who I'd be, and all the circumstances that I'd encounter. I thank you that you sent your one and only son to die on that cross for my sins. I thank you that even though I'm a sinner, I know that you love me, and my salvation is secure for Christ holds me in his hand, and you, Father, hold that hand that holds me. Oh, I get such joy when I think of that. I thank you once again just for who you are. I know God that you will carry me through this time in my life. In your sons precious name. Amen!
I'm tired! I'm exhausted from working full time (40-45 hours a week lately), Rob is working a very physically demanding job 45 hours a week, we have 3 ADHD children, a house, and just life in general. Let me be the first to admit. I'm doing a lousy job keeping up with all this. I'm tired all the time. My nerves are shot, I don't have patience with the boys, I can't keep my house picked up much less clean. UGH!!!! Today was another of those days. I was off this weekend, however I worked for 8 days straight to get to this point. I was tired. They boys stayed at my sisters on Friday. Great I thought, I'll get up and clean and do laundry, then we can go to the promised "Wal-mart shopping spree" with the boys. Well, I did sleep in. I slept until 9am. Got up started my day. My dryer is not working right. The vent house is flex pipe (?) and is full of lint, therefore, it will not heat up to dry properly. Therefore, it takes 2 to 3 times longer to dry the clothes, which makes laundry more of a nightmare than usual.
Okay, enough gripping. Today on the way to church I wasn't in a very good mood. I know it is just pure selfishness, things aren't going smoothly for me, and I don't like it at all. I'm tired of the boys fighting all the time, I'm tired with Austin (poor little guy wears me out), I'm just tired. Well, then we get to church, and of all things we talked about in SS was "Thankfulness". UGH!!! I was so convicted, I was almost in tears the entire time, good thing no one made eye contact with me or I would have lost it, like I'm about to do know just thinking of it.
Some of the things that Patti talked about were so elementary, I know them, but boy did I need to hear them. God is so absolutely great, and even if he doesn't give us exactly what we want we should still worship and glorify him. He doesn't owe me anything. I owe him so very much. He has given me life, and more than that, he calls me his own. He is my father, what more do I need. UGH!! I get so frustrated with myself sometimes. I'm so stinking sinful sometimes, it drives me crazy. I think I get trapped back into the mindset of "works based" thinking. I.E. "You know God I'm doing my best, couldn't you just reward me for that?" WHY! WHY! WHY! God is so awesome, I can't even put into words how I feel right at this moment. Why, when I feel this way to I allow my self to get so upset at circumstances, why don't I just turn my eyes towards God and cry out to him for help? Sinful nature, and a lack of quiet time each day with the one who is able to sustain me through all things, that is why. I have gotten so wrapped up with the day to day things, that I've forgotten to talk with God each day. It is so easy to say, "I trust God can carry me through any circumstance" and not believe it with all your heart. Today the Holy Spirit sure did a work in my life, I hope to not soon forget. Now does this mean I didn't struggle at all the rest of the day, absolutely not, I just know where I can find my true joy. It is in worshiping the creator, not what he has or hasn't done in my life God has preordained these circumstances, gave me the children I have, and I have to trust that he will work through me and carry me through this time.
I hope that this makes some sense to someone out there. Even if it doesn't, that is okay. To God be the glory for the revelation he did in my heart today.
Hevenly Father, I worship you for who you are. Father, please forgive me once again for my unbelief and selfish sinful nature. I have taken my eyes off of you once again, and focused my attention on the things in my life, and not on you. I cry out to you with a humble heart, asking that you please give me the strenght it takes to get through this time. You know the thoughts and desires of my heart. Lord you have given me the children chosen for me by you. Lord I thank you for them. Lord help me to glorify you, and to show them the love that you've shown to me. Help me Lord to be kind, and not so critical and unhappy towards my chilren. Lord, through the work of the Holy Spirit, I ask that you produce the fruits of the spirit in my life. I want to glorify you in all I do. Not for myself, but that others may see Christ in me. I thank you that you chose me "before the foundation of the world". You knew exactly who I'd be, and all the circumstances that I'd encounter. I thank you that you sent your one and only son to die on that cross for my sins. I thank you that even though I'm a sinner, I know that you love me, and my salvation is secure for Christ holds me in his hand, and you, Father, hold that hand that holds me. Oh, I get such joy when I think of that. I thank you once again just for who you are. I know God that you will carry me through this time in my life. In your sons precious name. Amen!
Monday, November 06, 2006
The Karate Kid
Here is some great pictures of Austin and Zach. As you can see my boys love to dress up too. It is funny to see what they come up with. This day evidently was Karate Day. Boys are great. So much fun.
Now let me tell you, this picture is a little decieving. They don't always act this calm when the other wants to try and kick you. LOL!!
Austin looks ready to conquer the world. See, he is such a great kid.
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